Pain & Suffering

Giving Our Life to Dead Things

Waiting is the hardest part, sang the late, and pretty stinking great, Tom Petty. I’m feeling that lyric lately. I’m going through some major changes involving some brontosaurus-sized decisions. And, as you know, scientists have proven through complex formulations that change sucks. Even good change can stink up the bathroom. Most of my friends also

How Not to Die Inside

I dated a girl I went to high school with years after high school was a dark black

Hurt People Hurt People

The causes are a complicated series of emotional and psychological abuse, faulty beliefs about my right to have emotions, and pain avoidance, to name a few. I spent years trying to avoid the reality of pain by numbing myself. Then, (surprise, surprise) I woke up numb, disconnected almost completely most days from my emotions. I

Today We Weep

It’s emptiness in the center of me. My brain is stuck in second gear, and I’m numb. People will tell you that you shouldn’t feel this way; that you shouldn’t mourn. If God is in control, they say, we should always rejoice. I disagree. When there’s a death, it’s okay to mourn. When there’s a

What About the Past?

I was talking with a friend today about the past. Not our past together, I mean the past.